Every year around this time November through February I live with depression. I am suffering with it today and this year it seems twice as bad as before.
Perhaps because I was living with Jim was the reason why it wasn't so bad, I had other things to occupy my mind, and was much more busy with him.
Again I have been scouring the internet for inspirational help, and most of it says if you set your mind to it you can change any thing.
My question is if your mind is telling you every negative thing in the world how in God's name do you turn it off from all the negativity?.
I feel as if I am in a battle of wills with in my self and the dam depression is winning.
I know this will end in the spring, because it has for the past 10 years, but I don't know how to deal with it until it lifts off.I feel as if i am stuck in a cage with no doors, and all the elements are coming at me.
So do I hunker down and try to survive, do I stand against the oncoming blast and come out bruised and battered?.
I know the answer is to just keep busy, and ignore all the awful feelings, but that is what my mind tells me I can't do, so I become more angry and frustrated. and sink even lower.
I do not want to spend the next 5 months in a huge pity party, because it is no party but a prison cell.
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