I just read a quote, "every thing you ever wanted is on the other side of fear"I can speak of a personal experience about this.
Very recently I applied for a grant for home renovations, not really expecting to get it. I did the paper work and got the quotes for work in my bathroom, The lowest was $17,444.00, I was shocked and a bit dazed. I have been accustomed to doing repairs in a cheap and tiny amount of work. Over all I got a fair bit of work done, but my bathroom was a different story. In the past I did replace the sink and counter top because the old one broke, a few years later I got the floor tiled and a new toilet . and yet still had a harvest gold tub and 70't plumbing.
The new work was basically for wall to wall plumbing and renovations, as well as a new tile shower with glass frame less doors.
As it stands today it is a beautiful bathroom as promised by the contractor.
Now the part about the fear, I was terrified about every step, I had to have strange people in my home, it was awful as I am a hoarder and my house is a hell of a mess. but the came and did their work, the only thing I heard was when I had apologizes for the 130 time about the mess was," I don't see a mess, I do see organized chaos ". and in so many ways this is so true.
The work was done as men and equipment and material was available, so it took about 3 1?2 weeks, at times it was frustrating as I wasn't kept in the loop, and was there fore always on edge, but I struggled through.
The biggest problem I can name was my belief that I didn't deserve this, how I came to that conclusion I will never know except I have felt that way about many things.
The end product is so lovely and I am so proud that I even push baskets and boxes away so I can show some one my new bathroom. I am now working on that I am a good person and do deserve good stuff in her life
