Some time when I look in the mirror, I wonder who that old lady is. Most of the time I do not feel 70 what ever that is. Yes I get tired but not like when I was younger and had 2 children, a job and a home and husband to care for. In those days time dragged it's heels, then, when I looked in the mirror, I wondered, where my life was going.
It took me a very long time to understand that it was going nowhere and it was because I never had the where with all nor the courage to try to change it. I spent more years that I care to think of "hoping, wishing , and praying for it to change" It was finally when I realised no one was going to come along and "rescue" me that I made changes on my own. That was years in the making, and doing. I really wish there were some way I could take a young person aside and tell them what I have thus far learned.
But i suppose that a lesson taught is a lesson learned rather than some one telling you to not stay in any situation unless there was a plan and an end.
I am almost sure when I was young and so very ignorant that I wouldn't have listened, all the time thinking that is you, and not me.
Any yet with all that I have learned and done, I feel as if I need at least 40 more years to actually enjoy the time I have had.
I do not believe I will get my 40, but I am going to give it a run for the money, and with my last breath I would like to be able to say wow that was wonderful.
So dear young ones, this lady does have a plan and an end, who lovely is that
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