About 10 years ago I was diagnosed with dementia, to say the least I was devastated. I was put on Alzheimer's medication and even though I do not have Alzheimer disease the medication works very well for me.With out the medication I feel like I am in one of those deep sea diving suits try to function on dry land, every step, thought, movement is a struggle. With the medication, I am for the most part doing fine, I still have short term memory problem, that can only be described this way. When you wake up in the morning and have had a dream, it is very clear, you remember who, what ,when and where, a lot of details, color sound, feelings. By lunch if you describe your dream, you might remember who , what and possibly where, but quite a few of the details will be gone, as the day goes on it becomes more and more difficult to put it all together, until it gets to the point that you remember you think you had a dream..
That is how my thought process works for me, if I only meet or see,or hear something once, the chances of me remembering it are not good. I have to do something repeatability, for quite a few times before it will partially stick in my memory. If it becomes a daily thing that I must do then I will most likely remember it .
I used to try to hide what I was going through , but do not any more because by hiding it I looked lost and confused most of the time. Yes I am still easily overwhelmed a lot, and I have to bow or back out and get my all together together.
So that is how I deal with my dementia, there are bonuses, like I can read the same book several times and still think it is new, and enjoy it every time. And there times I do not remember some one and I can see the hurt in their eyes. But I still feel blessed because I have lost most of my rage and anger, and have found peace and harmony in my life.
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