found this on facebook, good idea

Shame , shame , on you

I just read an article about a woman who lived with shame. Sound familiar, well it sure did to me. I am 70 years old and still let shame keep me back, I allow it to rule my days and nights.
What am I ashamed of, well for one I am so ashamed of my body, I am short fat, and I believed ugly. I said I believed ugly because that is what I was told in so many words, I remember when I was around 9 years old and my mother told me to keep my hair clean as it was the only redeeming feature I had, She told me when I was 11 years old she was so ashamed of me for being so fat that she never wanted to be seen with me in public. And I made that come true. If for any reason I was with my family in a public place I walked way behind them like I wasn't even with them, When I got married I got my Aunt to drive me to the church so my mother and dad never got to be seen with me. There is only one picture of me with the family and it was taken when my younger  brother got married, I had no choice but to be in it, but the look on my face is a horror to see, I look like a rabbit caught in the light of an oncoming truck, and that is how I felt when I was sent that picture about 3 years ago. I had never seen it befor that.




I made sure that never happened with my children, and yet I can recall obsessing about my daughters weight, as well as my sons. But that was for health reasons, when I found I was doing the same with my granddaughter I knew it was time to accept my self as I am and all those around me. It is not about your looks it is about your heart and soul.

An other new year

Time fly's no matter what, I am going to have to keep a notebook on me at all times, I had a wonderful idea for my blog a week ago and be damned if I can think of what it was.
I know it was something about letting my past ruin my future, as I seem to dwell on the past and that isn't a good idea, can't go back and change anything, but shouldn't let it affect my future by comparisons. I think I will work on the one day at a time idea, only with regard to what I am doing in the there and now.
On to a new subject I have a new kitten in my life, I always said I wouldn't have a pet because I couldn't afford the vet bills, But last september I was looking out in my back yard at 4 am and saw the sweetest little kitten with an angel face, I told a neighbor in the building and soon the tiny little thing had been captured and was on his way to the pet rescue, I said I would love to keep him but I had nothing to even keep him for a day, with in 5 minutes I had cat food, flea drops, a pet carrier, litter box with new litter init, as well as a promise for some one to look after him for a month while I was housesitting in Vancouver,
So now I am now a very proud pet parent, and wouldn't change any thing for the world, on a final note I looked into pet insurance and it was reasonable enough to purchase  and thanks to my niece  as she offered to pay for half of it, The little guy's name is nubbins and he is the most beautiful cat I have ever seen, probably a bit prejudice  there

100 wise words borrowed from stumbleupon

I wish you enough, borrowed from post on FB

When we said 'I wish you enough' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them". Then turning toward me, she shared the following, reciting it from memory,

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."

She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person. An hour to appreciate them. A day to love them. And an entire life to forget them.

8 ways to declutter your mind, borrowed from face book

borrowed for face book photo from Sheri Shares