The other day when I faced my fear about never finding love, and how I have looked for it, and some how in order to make my self feel better I found food. I never saw it as comfort, more like punishment, I would be there stuffing my self, and all the time the self heckling was going on. the more talk the more I ate, I at one time was 280 pounds and I am only 4 feet 10 inches tall, I was easier to step over than go around. I did have small bowel bypass surgery and it helped to a point, but I have always been at least 80 pounds overweight since.
Any way I haven't had the feeling nor compulsion to stuff my self, in fact I found that I wasn't even interested in eating every thing off my plate never mind going back for seconds. It is like I have no need to stuff, I am learning to love myself flaws and all, I am not being so harsh on myself. I feel so much more balanced, I love this feeling and willingly will work to keep this feeling.
It's a great day
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