I do not remember the last time I did a post, Today is January 28,2023, On Jan 17 one day before my birthday I had a mini stroke, I choose to dismiss it because the symptoms usually went away in a few hours or a day. Not so much this time I am still feeling way off center, and have allowed the consequences of the stroke to scare the living life out of me.

I find that almost every decision I make is a guess/judgement of time, and that always seems to be a very short time, I find myself saying well I won't buy this because I might not be alive to receive it next week, and this is scarring the hell out of me. I do have chats with self but it is not working, and I do not know how to deal with this,

There is no way that I have proof that I will die  very soon, nor do I have proof that I have years ahead of me. that being said I guess that I must find a way of accepting what is going on and hope/work for the best, I am going to act like I have all the time in the world and enjoy it rather than run scared and helpless. I wish myself all the best