Sunday, March 27, 2016

my beliefs have changed

More and more I find myself at odds with the religious holidays.
Quite a few years ago I started to question my religious beliefs,I read a lot of posts from Atheists and agnostics. Eventually my belief had boiled down to there might have been a creator. Now I am questioning that as well.
I truly wish there was a God, but I don't believe there is.
I find myself profoundly agitated when I see and hear people asking for prayers for themselves or others. My first instinct is to tell them get off their collective asses and do something about what they want prayers for.
I am sick of hearing ministers, priests and leaders telling us to believe and have faith. I am almost positive that if there were no god they would learn to take care of them selves and others in a manner that would not require intervention or god or others.
I am appalled at the way religions is used to move, force or strike fear into the lives of believers.
In fact that was my first wayward thought, that religions was to sooth and manipulate the peoples of the earth.
To me a religion is a manipulating, fear mongering  greed fest.
It is also blatantly used to make war on people that believe other people that do not believe as the oppressors do.
History shows that almost all the religions I have researched have been the aggressors and killers of people.
How can anyone possibly in that.
I don't understand those that expect a god to help when they should be intelligent enough to work out their own problems.
I think that 90 percent of the problem would disappear if there were no religions.
there would be no panhandling of a better place after you die.
One of the best things I ever read was a man died and went to heaven and God asked hi" well what did you thing of heaven when you were alive"
That is what I believe we make our own heaven or hell.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Random thoughts of the day

I haven't written any thing for a good long while. It seems to me that I only blog when I am upset about something, and hopefully how I found the answer I needed to go back to my balanced life, if there is such a thing.
But that being said I do recommend blogging even if it is for your own sanity. I do not have any one I would trust to listen and not judge or try to fix me.
Yes I do have a wonderful daughter I can talk to but she is under enough pressure for me to put more on her shoulders. I try to do what I can to help her and most of the time that is listening to her rant ( justifiably so ). I do come up with a few word of wisdom to pass along and the choice is hers as to weather she accepts it or not.
Old age is trying to settle in and I am trying to not let that happen with out a fight.I am 73and on most days I feel like I am about 49, on not so good days, and there are not a lot of them around 65.
When I do look in the mirror I see some one in their early 70's, and yet I have met quite a lot of people who are younger than me that look a lot older.
I believe I am very fortunate to have relatively good health.
I belong to a group of mostly seniors all the way up to 94, and there are 3 ninety four year olds, until last September 2 of them drove their cars to the meetings. They both have had falls and must not drive any more, but there is a 91 year old that still does. They are my hero's, I tried to get to know them and spend time talking to them they were all  great readers, and were always looking to learn new things. I have always believed that a closed mind is a dying mind.